Intake - 1,454

Output - 626 

total - 849 left. not bad, not bad. 

my coaches always rant at me about how i eat.

but i dont eat red meat because i havent for so long, and now i get sick to my stomach if i do. i dont even like the taste of it very much. they claim chicken isnt enough and i need to have beef every now and then.  they say i need to eat more, but i cant. i physically cannot. i eat as much as i can when i do, and if i eat more i will throw up because its just too much. i have a slow metabolism, and the only times i feel hungry is on weekends if i sleep all day and havent eaten in like 36 hours because i was sleeping. i dont eat because im not hungry, and the thought of eating when im not hungry is awful to me. its like when youve stuffed yourself full and if you try and take another bite you gag. i know i need more iron, but thats because i have a deficiency and the iron pills make me sick. 

im sick and tired of having a half hour nutritional lesson every practice, when i know all of it already. i know i need more iron and protein. i know i should be getting more calories. im trying, i really am. but i just cant.